It's summer.

Bryan is a ghost town and my house, full of people noise and fun during the school year, is empty and quiet.
One would think that this quiet would give me more time to think and write but I haven't written anything in months. The last post on here was about three weeks ago and it only half-way counts as writing something. I keep telling myself I need to get back to writing, that it's good for me, that it will help me feel better, think clearer, and function better, but I have been unable to bring myself to thus far.
Part of it is that I am so tired when I get home from work that I don't feel like getting started on something. Half the time knowing I'm to tired to accomplish anything and part of me afraid that with all the stuff bouncing around in my head I'd mess up an existing story, or get started on something new and be up all night, which is the last thing I need when working ten hours days every day. Partly I'm too tired to put the work in wrestling through a story line or editing old stuff, I work on stuff in my head throughout he day, but I have just can't seem to actually put pen to paper. I'm not sure why.
I've done a fair bit of reading but not what I hoped too, I couldn't for the life of me find my family's copy of Pride and Prejudice and the other books i want I can't yet afford to buy. I hate being broke.
I need to just make myself get back to it.. I need to write out a lot of what I've thought up in the way of stories and essays this summer. I really do need to. I know I need to, I know it's good for me, I know I'll regret it if the whole stinking summer goes by and I wrote nothing before the insanity of school starts.
I need to get in the habit of writing on a regular basis and there is no reason why I can't start that this summer. So that's my goal for this next week, slowly and surely I'm pushing myself to be more self-disciplined A year ago I was far more so, it's a lot easier to be when things aren't so insane, This past year has required a lot of flexibility, something I'm very good at, but I know that forcing myself to be disciplined in my daily routine makes me more efficient and productive, I can always deviate when I need to but if there's no need to then, it's best to stick to the schedule so I don't wast time or leave things to the last minute.

And now I'm rambling so I'll stop.